need a push...

Okay, I am in a rut. i do not know how I arrived in this situation, but I need a kick-start to make things happen.

Last year in Indiana I got motivated to lose weight and get into shape. I started eating right and exercising and the weight started to melt away. When I was working in Texas I was running 3-4 times a week and my runs were getting longer and my times were really improving. I felt great about myself and all the running allowed me to eat anything i wanted and remain slim.

Sure, I had some nagging aches and pains from all my running but I learned how to have rest days to allow me to heal. I found that it was not good for me to run more than three days in a row and that Ibuprofen helped to alleviate some of the minor aches and pains running can bring.

Leaving Texas I went to visit family in Florida and Virginia and my work outs took a bit of a holiday. I still tried to monitor what i ate and the weight stayed in check. I returned to Pittsburgh amidst the cold and slew of snow. So, gone were the 60 degree December runs in Texas and my running stopped.

In early February I started back on the treadmill. I got up to 6-8 miles 3-4 times a week on the treadmill, because it was way too icy and snowy to be running outside. I stopped my other work outs and do not really have an excuse as to why.

March came and the snow melted and I kept promising to abandon the treadmill and hit the roads, but here it is April (practically May) and I am still treadmill dependant. I still have not returned to working out and am running out of excuses. I do not know what is wrong with me.

Another bad note is that I have gained 12 pounds! Okay, 15 pounds! I am still wearing my thin clothes but without as much wiggle room. This weight gain alone should be enough to kick start my routine, but I am still rutted. I set dates to begin my routines again, but get side tracked. My last kink in the plan came when my friends and their wicked children came for a visit. Then I got bad awful sick - which I am still reeling from. However, I am off today and feel I should do something productive. It hasn't happened! In fact, I just devoured an entire package of Velveeta shells and cheese I think that counts as 50000000000 calories and about a billion fat grams. Now I just want a nap!

It doesn't help that it is cold again. Gone are the few weeks of 70-80 degree weather and replaced with 50-60s. It is hard to get motivated when it is cold out and I am still coughing up lung biscuits!

I will at least drag my ass to the treadmill today! I have to do something! Maybe I am just waiting for spring to take a firm grip and shake me out of these doldrums!